A Day I Wish to Recreate Everyday

Attaboy…what a day! I am going to boast in total self conceit like a narcissist in this post… I did it and I will praise myself for it. Although going public is uncalled for but that is narcissism, ain’t it? Moreover it’s a feeling that I observed and as a blogger, if not anything else, it’s a duty to report that observation J

Have you ever been through a phase when things just don’t seem to work? When the entire world seems to conspire against you, with potent tools like gtalk, facebook, TOI and the likes of it, life just comes at a standstill and leaves you gasping for breath. Research goes for a toss, days pass by within minutes, sleepy-eyed-face becomes a stable state. A good sunny weather also seems gloomy with no hope in sight. Every task, save the primitive bodily function, is procrastinated. It’s a limbo!

I was in this state and nothing, absolutely nothing had tinge of hope tagged to it. But some training or teachings of the past told me that this is not done. If I cannot take charge of my life, even god cannot help me. To seek the Ultimate assistance, I had to take a “leap of faith”. Monday night after lunch I made the call. I said to myself, “Boss! You’ve spent five freaking years working towards an objective which is not very far from where you stand right now. If you give up today, you will be a loser for life. If you make it, glory is all yours to take. It’s only then, that you get a passport for a new adventure in life. You have seen worst and this is just a phase and unless YOU make a deliberate effort, it will simply prolong. You have all what it needs to turn the tables around. Almighty is with you! Your near and dear ones are with you! YOU got to be with yourself now… Take charge and forge ahead.”

Early in the morning I decided to do what I, absolutely, HAD to do! Went to the bank, withdrew money for delayed payments, went for a coffee and did not spend time in hours, but in minutes and finally started to work on the project. I perused through a paper, did some lit-survey for the introduction part of a new project (paper). Then edited the block diagrams and edited the draft. Listened to some good music and wrote a short blog-entry on Ladies in the life of a man. It’s a power packed 6 liner. Do read it !! Finally came home, had a strong tea-cuppa and worked on C++. Now this was the killer stroke of the day! This is something that I had been waiting for, not months but, years! I wrote two very basic programs and then finally settled to write this post about one of the few awesome days I have experienced. I so wish to jot down each one of those. Once this is done I still am planning to work on honing my programming skills. I am so much in love with myself… 

God.. will you help me now???